Okay, so stats is getting me down. But let’s put this in perspective.Yes, I was doing statistics homework last night and kicked off this morning with a heavy dose of standard deviation and null hypotheses about things I don’t give a damn about, but that’s right now. That’s just yesterday and today. And if I finish this bs today and study for my exam on the 12th June then that’s just one fortnight of hell compared to an awesome year that has so far included a trip to Borneo, an amazing festival, Charles Bradley gyrating half naked on a stage and so many other great things. And In less than a month I will be in another country once again and in less than six months I will be heading off to the states for two months.

How the hell can I complain about my current situation when, in the grand scheme of things, it will seem like this shitty-ness never even occurred.

So while I may feel like this right now  -

And on the 12th I will feel like this -

A few days after, when I’m enjoying the balmy weather of Thailand, life is going to feel good. Oh, then I’ll probably get my results and I’ll feel shit for a little while, but let’s not think about that right now….

Back to the stats!

xx Lu

It’s creepy the things that come up when you type your own name into Google.

I had stories that I’d written four years ago on a youth website.

Pictures of me at a government function, on my uni website, a link to my other blog on Black Girl with Long Hair, various videos of me on Youtube, my LinkedIn account and even some of my family genealogy.

Then there were dead links, to things I’d deleted like my Twitter account.

The internet is a strange thing, I guess I’m thinking about this more because one of my coworkers has been telling me about her online dating adventures, and just today I overheard a guy telling his friends about the slightly explicit messages a girl he had ‘met’ on RSVP was sending him. It’s hard not to listen when someone starts giving details like that on the train, and after giving some pretty intimate details about this girl who referred to herself as ‘Toots’ he told his friends that they hadn’t actually met in person but had started texting each other after meeting through RSVP. I found this a little odd and disturbing.

So one of the women at work has been emailing quite a few men and has recently become a little concerned with her privacy. She said that she didn’t give them her phone number but her personal email address, which is made up of her first and last name. She said she didn’t think they would be able to do anything with that, but being the technology hardwired person of my generation I begged to differ, whipped out my phone and typed her name into google. And what came up? Information on her workplace, her direct work telephone number, her twitter profile and links to her facebook page.

Our lives are so open now, we leave so much opportunity for other people to become a part of our lives and for us to not even be aware..sometimes when I write on here it’s the first thing I think of, other times when I’m just too caught up in a particular emotion it’s a thought that doesn’t occur till much later.

These days, it seems like someone can just keep living as long as the internet keeps them alive, people like Zyzz or Britt Lapthorne who have had groups set up by complete strangers to celebrate their lives.

I can’t help but think what kind of digital footprint I’ll leave behind, if in thirty, forty or fifty years you’ll be able to type in my name and receive a random selection of memories. Who knows? I’ll get back to you in a few.

x

 

I have listened to this a ridiculous amount of times and fall in love a little more each time. At first I thought it wasn’t really something I would get into, but with each listen I find something else to love.
Another great Clare Bowditch song, I can’t wait for her to go on tour again.

I’ll never know where you left you’re clothes

But that girl is my first clue
Such a glorious face – she gives it all away
Right now all i know is,

You lied, Lied
You lied.

Here in this bed, you once so famously said
“You’re Frida, I’m Diego”
If that were true
I’d take a lover and forgive you
Right now all I know is

You tell the beautiful lies, lies
And I ran to fall from them every time

23, 23, had the world alive inside of me
And “Anything can happen!”
And it will, and it does
Before long it all gets serious
And I am in your room watching you naked for the last time
You liar.

Is this why I loved you?

You speak the most beautiful lies, lies
And I ran to fall for them every time
Every time.
And you speak the most beautiful lies, lies
And I ran to fall for them every time
Every time
Is this why I loved you?

Tell me, is this why I loved you?

 

I’ve decided to start compiling some of the things that will inevitably inspire my planned tattoo. Lately I’ve been feeling very inspired by Mirka Mora. She does these amazing, almost childlike, paintings that speak volumes. Here are some of the ones I’ve been looking at lately…

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In particular, I love the way she draws birds. I’m thinking a very simple sketch of one of her birds, but adapted slightly. This is definitely quite different from my previous idea but unfortunately Thomas Hooper isn’t taking any new clients at the moment. I’m not going to attempt to get someone to imitate his style, so I thought I’d try something completely different.

...and this was the other thing I tried out, a little blue head wrap thing with unusually toned down earrings for me. If you hang out with me a lot, you'd know it's pretty unusual for me to wear anything that doesn't dangle, but my host sister in Borneo gave me these gorgeous little pearl earrings and I feel guilty whenever I see them sitting on my dressing table.

Mini 'fro and lots of goop on my face! I don't know why this picture turned out looking so sultry, but I'm going to put it up anyway. This is my first attempt at a 'fro since my hair started growing back. I know, it's a little weak, but you have to work with what you've got, people! I also happened to have a lot of make up on at the time as well because I was heading out to a friends EP launch. This whole 'having hair thing' is really growing on me (no pun intended)...

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